Life, Love...

Days 9,10,11,12,13

Yup, I haven’t been on the computer in 5 days.

9. Something that makes you sad when you think about it.

     The way I had to leave all the good that was at my first high school cause of one bad.

10. One thing you lied about.

     Where I was last night.

11. Would you rather be stranded on a desert island with someone you love for 10 years or someone you hate for a month. Keep in mind you have to survive. Discuss.

     Someone I love for 10 years. Chances are if I really hate you, it’s a strong hate. I don’t just randomly hate people.

12. Something you are currently worrying about.

     Never finding someone to love.

13. Name one person off tumblr you’d throw off a cliff, one you’d marry and one you’d shag.

     Cliff- CS, Marry- BF, Shag- JG. Sorry I can’t tell you more =]

8. Your last night out in detail.

For my last night out we would probably have to go back to 2 Saturdays ago. I had made plans to go to a party with MB and her friend (and now mine) BC. It was a birthday party for the host’s friend and also kind of a Christmas party. We went to pick BC up and then we could not find what we were looking for at 3 different liquor stores. So we drove to the party and the directions got us a bit lost. But we found it. Hung out there for awhile. Talked to people. Watched the most hilarious game of Wii bowling I’ve ever seen. Headed back to drop BC off. Had a heart to heart with MB on our way back.

Real exciting night. I know.

What to do when your best friend gets engaged…

Or… Will I be lonely forever?

Just the text every single girl wants to get on Christmas. “Guess who’s engaged!”

Not.

This is the first Christmas I’ve been single since I was about 12. It changes things. While I made fun of my sister for running off to exchange presents with her boyfriend, I was secretly jealous. When I found out my high school friend was spending Christmas Eve with her boyfriend’s family, I was secretly jealous. And when I got the text that my best friend was engaged, I was secretly jealous.

Now of course, I’m happy for her. It doesn’t come as a surprise to anyone. We all knew it was coming, and I had a very strong feeling it was going to be Christmas (I’m pretty sure I knew in my head all week). All my excitement and happiness for her doesn’t help me from feeling jealous and upset.

I thought I would be first. I always did. I think everyone did. Just because in retrospect I know NH and I were NOT right for each other doesn’t mean at the time I didn’t think I’d be married to him sooner rather than later. I pictured the gorgeous new ring to be on my left ring finger. Instead I sit here with another one of my fun cocktail rings on my right.

Is this what I can expect for the next 2 decades? Texts from friends announcing their engagements. A lack of texts from men, or even just one man, saying how much they would like to go out with me tonight. I know it hasn’t been that long, but am I really going to go a whole year with out even one real date?

This can only be the first of many. I can either make pacts with other single friends to live in misery when we’re old and alone or work harder in the search for “Mr. Right” (heck, I’d even take Mr. Right now for awhile).

At least it’s an excuse for more frequent manicures with the biff, she does have a ring to show off after all.

Days 3,4,5,6,&7

Whoops. How ‘bout we catch up in one post.

Day 3. 5 things that irritate you about the opposite sex.

      1. Inability to pick a movie/restaurant/place to go out. (even when not a date)

      2. Untimely responses to texts. I know you aren’t putting that much thought into it but we’re kinda having a conversation here.

      3. Ability to make me melt when I am trying to be serious. Why?

      4. Constant dragging things out when they should have ended long before.

      5. Always turning the harmless things I say into something sexual.

(okay so some of those were directed at certain people/situations but when it happens with more than one person I think it can make the list.

Day 4. The best thing to happen to you this week.

      This week, it would have to be going skiing for the first time. I fell. On my face. Quite a few times. But I had a lot of fun with my sister and cousins while we were there. I would definitely try it again. It was obviously not going to be something I could do instantly. More lessons and more practice and I’ll get better… hopefully.

Day 5. Weird things you do when you’re alone.

      Speak in a British accent.

      Verbalize random parts of thoughts.

      Sing.

      Read whole books in 3 hrs.

      (not all “weird” but it’s what I do)

Day 6. How you’d spend $10,000

      Books. Shoes. Purses. Really expensive shoes and purses.

Day 7. Things you don’t like about the way you look.

      My weight

      The fact that my hair won’t grow out any faster and I’m tempted to keep it short

      Weight.

Whoops, skiing and Christmas eve made me miss the 30 day challenge. I’ll catch up tomorrow or Sunday.

2. A famous person you’ve been compared to.

Uhhhh. No one.

Whenever you have to say who would play you in a movie about your life I pick Katherine Heigl. But that’s not exactly being compared.

A portrait of myself…

12/21/2010

Days left til end of finals - 1

Number of finals I’ve taken - 0 of 1

Time I will take said final - 4pm tomorrow

Number of loads of laundry to be completed tonight - 6 (4 in progress)

Pages completed for my section of group paper - 0 of 5

Percentage of belongings packed to go home - 0%

Ounces of motivation I have to get any work completed - 0

Desire to go home for a month - 0

Aggravation toward suite mates for mess left in common room - through the roof. I will inevitably end up cleaning everything. I certainly do no not want to get charged for the mess. Only if they thought to clean up their own stuff before they left.

Minutes spent procrastinating on this post - 10 

1. The person you like and why you like them

I don’t like anyone right now. I wish I did. At least not in a way I say “I really like you”.

But for the sake or something more interesting I will tell you about a person I enjoy spending time with and talking to.

I never thought we would necessarily end up being friends. But, now we are. We were always friendly and would catch up if we bumped into each other but never talked on a regular basis. Our friendship changed quickly and we talk very regularly now. I feel like I could talk to him about anything and I put a very high value on our friendship. Not to mention, he gives great hugs.

A 30 day challenge

Heads up. I’m doing one. Easy way to keep you up to date about life, love, and surviving through the holidays. But of course I’ll spill my guts if there are other good things to talk about.

=]

Dorm Living

I’ve become disenchanted.

I chose to go to college very close to home. There are pros and cons to that decision but I made it. There’s nothing to say I’m not getting an excellent education here. Even thought I could very easily commute to school, I live on campus. Now, I can definitely say that it was the right choice, especially as a freshman. My best friends at school lived in the room right next to mine our first year here. We would have never met if we didn’t live next to each other. And my roommate sophomore year is one of my most favorite people! (She spent the semester in London which is why we are not currently roommate =[ ) The memories of nights spent up doing work (and procrastinating) or getting 6 loads of laundry done at 2am can not be replaced.

This year I live with a completely different, yet still lovely, group of girls. The people who were never more that a door away now live in different buildings and some spent the semester across the Atlantic. I don’t know if this is the root of why I don’t enjoy the dorm life so much anymore but I think it’s a part of it.

Call me a L 7 weenie, but the party scene here was never my thing. It was something that none of us really got involved in from the beginning. That also makes it hard to just start as a junior. I’ve found myself spending more time off campus (for parties or just general “hanging out”). I still see my former neighbors but we are all so busy with classwork that even if we were a door apart I don’t think I’d see them frequently. (When the others come back from Europe they will all probably be in the same building. Will I be left out of everything? They can hang out so much easier. This is a continuous thought. I guess we will have to see.)

So do I need to live here to remain friends with them?

It was important to establish these relationships that I live on campus, but now it just doesn’t seem that important. Do I want to spend next year living in a building where the typical weekend parties include drinking to get crazy drunk? The parties are fine but I don’t need to black out to have a good time. I think we should all know our limits. And I enjoy sleep.

I’m very involved so I know I would still be on campus for much more than classes. I just don’t think I want to spend my nights here anymore. I’m ready for the independence. Oh yeah, I will not be moving home if I don’t live on campus. That’s not an option (well it is but no one would be happy).

I have a friend who is having similar feelings but we definitely need to have a chat about this before I bring it up with the others. It’s kinda a big decision.

So, do you need to live with college friends to say college friends?